I just want to vent and not be judged. I can apreciate when others vent- we all have to at some point or we would explode! It's the people that don't express their stress and frustration verbally or some other way that is healthy that I worry about. And those people who think they are better than you because they don't vent on social media- I could easily call them pious  egostists, but you know , they were probably abused as children and taught that thier lives have no meaning and their opinions mean nothing, so they look to validate themselves by judging others who feel the liberation of being  able to express themselves. I choose to pity them.

My vent:
 Husbands.  Yes, we as Christian wives are suppose to look at our husbands as leaders and defenders of our homes. And they usually do a decent job. Some more than others. Mine is not too shabby for the most part,. He could be a lot worse.   He doesn't beat me, cheat on me, drink alcohol, do drugs, or gamble. But at the same time, he is just a lump of nothingness. He does lie to me- but about stupid stuff. He rarely has sex with me. I've gotten to the point that even when he does, I don't want it. He's grouchy with the kids, and seriously no fun at all.   Case in point: I suggested we go for a fun drive tonight after dinner as a family for our family home evening. His idea of fun- going on base, getting gas, and driving all the way around the base and coming home- after I beg him too. First of all, I said fun. What is so fun about driving on base at night seeing stuff we've see a thousand times. I thought maybe we would stop and walk on the beach. No. He kept driving. After we passed the beach- I had to say something. Seriously what in the world was he doing???  This was not fun, driving around in big fat circle . Chloe fell asleep. Lucy was coughing, and Emily, bless her sweet soul, was trying to sing her favorite song, while Jerry was busy telling her to stop. That made me furious!
How dare he waste my time and treat our children this way?  I told Emily to keep singing and I proceeded to let Jerry know what a good for nothing, waste of time he was and is!

Now, I am eating oreos and icecream till I feel better ..... we all know Jerry won't make me feel any better. HE NEVER TRIES TO MAKE THINGS BETTER!!!!!

I wish he would just go away for a while- please pray with me for a quick and longlasting deployement as I want him out of my life for a while!!!

I guess this makes me a bad Christian wife. I'm not perfect, I am a sinner. It gives me all the more reason to repent.

The end of my vent.  I feel better now, but he is gonna sleep on the couch for a while.